Having one of those days - those "stare at the ceiling" days. I feel like it would be really easy for me to go crazy right now. Just give in and go completely bats**t insane. Maybe I never even had a brother to begin with. He's always been lost.

I've lobbied, held fundraisers, and slept outside government buildings. Everyone I could think to call I called. I have everyone's pity. But there's always more to do. The growth of people is great but I can't sort through all these theories. I don't know what to believe anymore. Everyone thinks they know. But no one knows for sure where Teddy is, do they? No one is honestly doing anything to bring him back. The attention is great - but people could care less whether he actually comes back or not.

Why isn't anything happening? Why am I in the exact same place I was 4 months ago? Why won't anybody tell me what's going on? What do I have to do to get the truth?????

I've gotta make more calls. It's part of being a crazy person. You don't ever stop.

Just wanted to thank everyone for the new outpouring of support I've been getting. I'm guessing some of what I'm doing must be working. So, whether you saw the flyers, heard about me on the news, or whatever, it's good to have more visitors here.

Here’s the form letter I got from Tagruato after months of calling. It must’ve taken them 2 minutes to write this. Now they direct me to a false answering machine whenever I call.

“Dear Ms. Hanssen,

We are deeply sad to learn about the disappearance of your loved one. Unfortunately, we have no further information at this time related to the Chuai rig collapse. If you have any other knowledge that would help us aid you in your search, please do not hesitate to contact us.

Sincerely,
Ai Watanabe

All right, John, you asked for it and I’m giving it to you. Here’s the government “representative” who was assigned to my case and has yet to answer a single straight question. Are any of you still missing family members? Maybe we can all get answers. I got his personal email because the bozo couldn’t figure out how to work his Blackberry and emailed me with it. Let’s make him listen to us!

Please feel free to bombard john.garrettie@yahoo.com with your questions. I am.

All right, people. Renewed sense of purpose. We need to band together here! I know I’m not the only one who has lost someone. We can’t keep hiding. Contact me. Contact John Garrettie. Make them listen to us! Stop reading this and do it!